After what seems to be a very long eleven weeks, this quarter is finally over! At the very beginning I had set up some expectations for myself and I wanted to walk away from this quarter with a better look at what I was doing and perhaps a better direction on were I was going. In the beginning panic shook my core and a direct result of this was boring, tasteless images because I thought this was what fashion looked like, to be honest I don't think I had ever payed all that much attention to fashion and what is was other then anorexic models teaching us to hate our self's..............how could a size 0 be healthy or attractive for that matter? I really struggles with doing fashion photography and I think its only for the fact I always pulled myself away from that type of female because I never felt like I belonged and to be frank I never wanted to. I was the emo-gothic kid before it was cool and was viciously harassed by the cheerleaders among others. Now as an adult those scars still remain but I use that energy towards my art and really I don't think I would be the person that I am today without all that shit as a child, so in a very odd way I am thankful for the torment of my youth. So long story short, I walked away from this quarter feeling really good with the final result of my images, by no means was it easy but once I stopped tying to give my instructor images that I thought he would want to see the whole process was less stressful. One thing I know for sure is fashion photography is not where I am heading but I am grateful for the opportunity and experience that it has left me with. One big conclusion I came away with this quarter is I really don't want to create images that influence people to go out and buy the next great thing on the selves but I want to spend my life creating beautiful images that make people think.........I know, I know there is no money is this but really I don't think creating art is about money, its far more then that! So I will leave you all with some inspiration that has helped my greatly with my path as an artist.
Follow your heart and soul and everything else will fall into place! <3
